So none of those things I mentioned prove gods existence.
None of them have any relevance whatsoever to whether a God exists or not.
That was basically an unedited rant about the problems you see in the world.
If you are still a JW, what are you going to personally do to try to benefit the human race? Stand in front of a trolley/cart and pass magazines out? It's the easiest thing in the world to sit there reading sensationalist tripe in newspapers and praying to a god to save us from doom..
If I were you, I would try to decide first what I wanted to DO with my life, rather than waste peoples time on a message board expecting them to suggest a different way that I should view the world and mankind.
Get out there, LIVE your life fully rather than just waiting for an answer from a God or men, and then decide what you want to believe, once you have experience.
As long as you surround yourself with Witnesses and Watchtower literature, your thought processes will be restricted and there is little point in discussing views on mankind, God, or the suffering that this organisation has allowed.
You won't read Crisis of Conscience by Raymond Franz to see what you personally feel about it, because your mind has been programmed not to read any books by former members of the organisation. You will shut out any views that you don't want to hear.
If you really want clarity regarding your beliefs, 'widen out' by socialising with different kinds of people with different beliefs, even those who do not believe in a God. Have a good argument/debate.
Be critical of beliefs, and compare them to all the available evidence.
Once you have formed your OWN opinions, and starting from scratch is usually needed to do this, clarity will follow. But it will take time.
You know by now that the Watchtower doesn't have the answers (otherwise you wouldn't be here).. Neither does anyone on this board have answers for you.
They are points that I look at and ask myself 2 questions.. I would be curious what some of your thoughts are.
Why do you really want to know what our thoughts are? You sound like you are fighting an internal battle, but nobody here can give you an immediate answer.
Start off by asking yourself:
Why do I believe there is a God?
Biology and 'design'?.. So study evolution and science. Some people here can recommend books to start you off.
The Bible?.. So study history. Read the works of scholars and critics alike. We can even point you in the direction of information regarding the Bible and it's history and context, if you like.
But trying to answer your two narrow questions is, in my view, a waste of time. I am an atheist, because I see no reason to hold a theistic belief.. How does that help you?.. It doesn't.
Ask yourself questions. Study for yourself, think for yourself.
Don't rely on anyone else.